It's my life

Ah! November... its funny how a year can sit still and quiet upon a rock, sunbathing and at the strangest of times, take flight like a seabird. Yes, my mind is already at the seaside as I sit day dreaming at my desk, the open textbook beyond my vision, waiting patiently for my attention.

My final Matric exams are underway, and I can only wonder through them, lost at sea until the day comes when I spot an island of comfort. It is a strange feeling though, this leaving business. One I cannot fully comprehend or yet come to any direct terms. I feel the excitement, splendor, jubilation of the first toddling steps of my future and career beginning, and yet, left on the shores of childhood so many friends and family that watch me take off with... how did Shakespeare put it? "drowning an eye, unused to flow."

But change is an inevitable factor within the lives of individuals. Some for the worse, others for the better, but I plan on making the most of my ever changing livelihood, ans as for so far the changes have brought me all the more joy, and I plan to keep it that way. For now I must sit though, in the dusty exam room, watching the hours tick by, the low scribble of light pens dancing frantically on their pages, filling out inevitable futures that I can wonder further, deeper perhaps than my minds knowledge and find wisdom there?

May it be an evening star shines down upon your papers, fellow matrics,

and May it be you journey on into your futures, to light the day!

Have a smashing matric rage! ;P

~Eden~

Today, I can honestly say that I've had a good day's work.

Thinking of my last blogging, I can honestly say that all the needs on my hierarchy are met and I am content with my life. The only really pressing thing on my mind is that my gym card has expired and I am in need of a good work out!

I managed good results for last term and all went well. Now the pressure is on to just keep it up. But through my happiness and contentment, I am confident that I can tackle any challenge that surfaces, or at least most. oh, beautiful life and all its intricate complexities. How beautiful it is to experience it to its fullest and to highest fulfillment. Sweet, wonderful pleasures!

I'm done Hippie-ing now... ha ha! just thought I'd drop by with a post to say that my hierarchy for this time is complete.

Take care!

Eden

Picture from: flickr.com

It's been a while I guess... In fact almost two months have passed and I am absolutely exhausted by the fast paced life I've been forced to lead. Constant school work with no tourniquet to its ceaseless flow and then the gyming in between which I can't complain about. Sculpting my body and exhausting every inch of my being physically is a pass time I have become almost addicted to. :)

Now, after four weeks of exams, tomorrow is finally the final curtain and I can only imagine the feeling of relief and almost confusion of release and freedom that will overcome me. It's been a while.

And now, having poured over Maslow's hierarchy of basic needs, I feel that most of my primary needs are met, most anyways :P, I now feel the need in the esteem department, and to get the results I have worked hard for this term. Seeings though I won't have the full fulfillment of that until next term, I believe that it is now time to fulfill the needs that I seem to miss on this scale... excitement, rest, adventure and escape! probably falls under the purple category, but anyways, Tomorrow I shall set myself off into a new day of hope and release!

Hope all out there have the same sensations and the best holiday ever! :D

~all from me for now~

Eden

Maslow's hierarchy was found at: "http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Image:Maslow%27s_hierarchy_of_needs.svg"

Second dream underway in what feels in some ways like no time at all and in some ways, like an eternity of wait. I'm not even sure its sunk in properly yet, that I am an author. It's an overwhelming feeling to know that you've now done what you dreamed of as a child, what you've always aspired to. All it takes is a bit of hard work, planning, dedication and determination. One should never give up on what you wish to do with yourself. I never intended to.

"Intelligence without ambition is a bird without wings" - Salvador Dali

Let me set the next challenge to flight!

It's been a while since I've posted, and the reason for my absence has been none other than the strain of hard schoolwork in my matric year hanging over my back. Luckily, It is now exam time and I have never in my life been so happy to enter a full three weeks of exam. It may mean studying but that is nothing compared to the work load that it takes off all of our shoulders.

I have come to experience over the past months some moments that I have only ever seen in movies. So much so that I could not believe the situations in which I landed myself and yet, I laugh to myself, that movies, (well, some anyways) are based on people, and their emotions and real events. So technically, the movie moments that are based on supposed yet unlikely reality, has been my life for a while now.

But on the subject of people, I find them incresingly strange beings in behaviour. I know that one cannot justly compare people with animals, but we all possess the same qualities and organs that make us living breathing creatures and I like to look at our behaviour compared to that of other living mammals. How humans can fake emotion, Smile when they don't really mean it, laugh when they don't find something funny and the fact that we possess the intelligence that allow us to pick up subtle changes in body language and tone and know that its fake. Yet we still do it, despite the fact that we know others know we faking it. I've never seen a dog wag its tail when it wasn't happy to be accepted into another dogs pack. or a horse arch with pride when it wasn't happy. Humans truly are stange beings.

Eden

To somehow find that you can come to terms with yourself and in general the way you are is an extravagant thing. How influential you come across as to others depends not on how blatantly military you are, but how subtly you can change the minds and opinions of others. Not that having to change minds matters much, because everybody has his or her own views on how life should run and according to their circumstances, everyone have their own stories and views. History makes us. We live according to experiences in life and what we have learned so far. One can also simply benefit from watching the paths taken by those around you and following along in a parallel path but one not quite the same, may learn by others' mistakes.